Marionettes

Sin has crept it's way into the church with a new name and a different face. Sin is welcome and accepted, yet ignored and rejected. Not acknowledged as sin, it's disguised with a grin and planted deep into the hearts of this generation. Causing them to sit in church with dark eyes and little light in their minds. Their Conscience screams but is only faintly heard as the fiend directs a scene known as "The Generation on Strings".
They are becoming marionettes, one by one. Playing the game of sin and boy, it is fun...

Light & Life

Lord, how deep does Your love reach?
You've given it for me to keep
My mind cannot comprehend
How Your love has mended my broken heart
My start and my end
You've penned in Your book
You remember how You created me
With delicate hands so intricately
You knew every step I would take
When I sleep and when I wake
The days I would fall into Your arms
Calling You by name
You are eager to remove all my stains
So that I may be blameless before You
How true Your love is to me
Your sweet grace and rich mercy
All placed in my heart and overflowing
Pouring our and showing Your glory
Through all my cracks You've written a story
Once a mess and now I'm soaring
No more mourning but dancing
No more flirting but romancing
With my True Love
You are more than enough
I know it will be tough
But You are worth the fight
I love You...my Light and Life

Shades

[P s a l m 1 3 9]

My mind never slows down...
I find myself on the ground
Asking desperately for peace
To sustain me
To keep me on this journey
My mind seems to weigh me down at times
Thoughts are heavy
What would I do without You?
I don't always have words that rhyme
But when I look at my life
I see that You were always right behind me
In front of me and around me
Sometimes You held me
When I couldn't stand on my own
As I read in Your word
And realize how detailed of a God You truly are
My mind can only handle so much
My spirit believes somehow
That You know every fiber of who I am
To be known is a beautiful thing
Yet to also be loved
Through all my faults
Through all my mess
All my imperfections
You are still the Refuge I find at the end of the day
Where I know I can stay
Where You say that I am Your daughter
I love the different shades of You
How You reveal each one at it's perfect time
Sometimes Your glory is shown with a smiley bright light
So we see and we rejoice
Sometimes You're loud and fearful like thunder
With Your authority ringing out
So we fall to our knees and reverence You
Sometimes warm and sweet like a mother's hospitality
So we rest and we thank You
You have allowed me to gaze upon a new shade of who You are
I am so humbled
Because You go so far beyond all of the earth
All the wonder and glory
That I behold in Your presence
Leaves my body absent
And my spirit soaring beyond this world...

Thank You...thank You...thank you.

Come...

Come...

A word that gives me wings
To know that I am wanted
That I am treasured by the King
In His Majesty and Grace
His face shines like the breaking of a new day
His words rush life through my veins
The waters of joy flood my soul
Because I am known by You
Who is Perfection
Yet has affection for me
So feeble and weak
Your strength is enough for me
And the whole world to stand strong upon
So we can believe and be free
You've made this our reality
The power of Your blood is unfading
Unfailing and unchanging
Sometimes we stand in our own way
Of receiving what You've paid
The stripes You wore
Your compassion that poured
Adorned with Glory
In the form of a man on a cross
The story will never fade
The power it held on that day
Is available just the same
When the music grows faint
And the day is done
I still hear You
You're calling out

Come...

Silent Scene

Well it's been a while since I've written anything. This summer has been crazy! God has brought me into a tough season. It's been hard to write because my mind has been on overload. And I really do mean overload; watch out, this one is long!

I can't find a melody line to describe

What I'm feeling inside tonight
The silence seems to be the best fit
For the scene I'm seeing myself live
It's been a long time since I've feared
Be near Abba Father and hear my words
My heart is first to do Your will
Please fill the crying doubts with shouts of faith
Make Your grace shine on my eyes
I desire to fulfill Your will but still
I can barely see over this hill in front of me
Lord bring a gleam of light
Make things right again
But maybe my right isn't the same as Your right
Maybe this fight in my faith
Is the face of something new
You already knew this would come
It's no surprise to You...is it?

Sometimes I want to run
Because I've begun to see You stretch me
When I am willing
And it isn't exactly appealing
To be shaken and have no feeling
To wonder why and where and how
I never want to doubt You
But somehow doubt has become my friend
It's hard not to be deceived by trend
It's easy for them to pretend their lives are free
Free from the application and condemnation
Of sin's backstabbing termination
I have followed You and ignored the world
I took up the sword and put to death my flesh
You began to revamp the mess I was in
Lord when I look back I see you never once failed me...

But I got real comfortable in your grace
The faces of your people each day
The praises with your people I sang
I asked you to take me to greater things
To stretch me and to have your way
Little did I know...
You would move me to grow
In a way much different than I have known
To show me that You never do what I expect from you
I must think less of me because you are King
Which means You reign above this finite brain
And all the names I try to put on Your ways
I feel like I've been launched into something huge
Something so unfamiliar and new
Lord I am learning to trust your plan
When I don't understand
You are gracious and patient with me
You would never turn Your back on me
Surely You won't forsake me
For I seek Your face daily
You know my heart
You see my start and my end
You hemmed me together
You know me better than I know myself
You've always been my help
My Shelter from the storm
My Daddy and my Lord
You are for me...

Therefore I will stand and open my hands
To the One who came humbly as a man
Like you I receive the plan laid out for me
Though it won't be easy you are with me
And I can keep on this journey
As faith keeps churning
And my heart is yearning for You
It's true that You are all I have
I'm sure You laugh...
Because I think you like it that way
So all I have left to say; is Abba Father, have your way...


"Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name's sake, O Lord, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble. In your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant."
Psalm 143:7-12

Treasures in the heart

I couldn't sleep last night...
Cause' I had you on my mind
Meditating on your might
Amazed by Your mercy
Your grace so sweet
After it all...how is it for me?
You are so holy
But I am just me
Apart from you I lack all good things
You say Your grace is sufficient for me
I believe it more each day
I always need Your grace in a new way
God who am I to say
"It's my way"
When the next breath I breathe
Is a gift from thee?
Pour out my pride till' I'm empty
Till' every song I sing
Every word I speak
Is Your words through me
I'm just a clay jar
With treasures in the heart
Somehow I can be...

Righteous


But apart from You I'm just clay with no potter
You mold me
Shape me
Cleanse me
With Your living water
Bring me through the fire even if it burns
You know better than I so I try to learn
To trust you through it all
And you know what I saw?
You never left me alone
Your sweet mercy is shown
In my life O Lord
You use the small
The ones who fall
And get back up cause' it's you they call
They know you're all they have
When all falls You stand
So fan the flame
You've sparked in my heart
May the flames run wild and free
Until it's you they see...not me
To God be the glory!
May this be my testimony...


"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
...All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God."
2 Corinthians 4:7-9 & 15

When the music's gone

What happens...
When the music's gone?
No more words to follow
No more song
No more composing or routine
To usher you into my presence
Just you and me
Is your worship wrapped into something so small?
Or will you worship even when you call
And you feel as though your voice bounces off a wall?
If you understood how my loves carries you
You would
If you heard me instead of the noise
You wouldn't pursue music
Just my voice
My desire is for you to hear ME
To feel me
To know who I am
I am the I am
The only one who can
If you understood what takes place
When you open your mouth and taste
O taste and see me
Learn how heavenly
Your worship is to me
How I treasure you
I'm waiting to wash you
To take you and to mold you
I already bought you
I carried your pain
It will all be okay
I see no stain on you!
So why are you carrying the burden you do?
I'm eager to free you

stop

be still

and know who I am

I'm deeper than a feeling
More faithful than the sun
More vibrant than a rainbow
Sweeter than words could express
Nothing can defeat
Nor compete
Nor compare to "him"
I am more than just "him"
I am more than that "big man upstairs"
I'm that still small voice in the air
The one that warns and cares
The one that stills the seas
And orchestrates and leads
I am in all and through all and for all

be still
know me
taste me
stop and see

How in heaven I intercede
I've opened the door
Defeated death
It is no more!

Be
free

Lift up your heart and worship me...

Know in your heart these things
So you may know why you sing
The music itself has no meaning
I won't tolerate empty songs
So you must learn what to do
When the music's gone...